Down deep deep,
Translucent wings flex,
And crack against the cold, hard walls
And breath is breathed
And life diffuses.
Down deep deep,
The incision has not yet scarred,
And pain steadily contracts,
And translucent wings flex,
And life diffuses.
Down deep deep,
A hand touches farther than good,
And its power is love,
And its power is pain,
And life diffuses.
Down deep deep,
I'm learning to fly,
But I haven't yet risen above
The spidery rain clouds
And the spongy sunsets,
And the lightening.
Oh the lightening.
But down deep deep,
His name is healing me,
And the pulse of His heart
Is the melody, ringing in my soul,
And I'm still not there,
And the wings haven't repelled me from
A barren ground,
But the walls are cracking,
And I will wait.
And someday,
Deep down deep,
I will fly,
Oh and I will soar.
Translucent wings shall flex,
And life shall diffuse.
Jesus, soon?
I. Trust.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
Backtrack
As most of you know, I began a journey to 1000 Gifts not that long ago. It was meant to be a journey of thankfulness, tallying up the things I'm thankful for and have been blessed by, but lately, I feel like I've just been going through the motions of it, just listing highlights of my week, not really digging deeper or trying to establish a heart of thankfulness. Thus, there's no point. At. All. So, in order to try to revert my heart back into thankfulness mode, I'm just going to post one thing that I'm thankful for today. Something I'm truly thankful for instead of just zapping the blogosphere with a half-hearted list of gratitude. So today? Today I'm so thankful . . .
378. That Jesus loves me deeper than I thought possible. That His love sweeps into the most arid parts of my being. That His love is not frightened away by my ugliness. My secrets. That His love heals me . . . it dips into the inmost, and I am new. NEW. alleluia . . . That He didn't love me and leave me. He's here to stay, . . . to dance with me and speak into me to run, to run to the world with His light, to run into the hurting, to run into the dying, to run into Him, into Peace. To Run. To Live. To Die. Oh thank You isn't enough. It will never be. Ever. But for now, it is what I have to give. That and this makeshift life of mine. Oh how I hold back too often. I'm selfish, prideful, arrogant, ashamed. Never ever enough. But His love is . . . I'm learning, and I'm changing. Piece by piece. . .
378. That Jesus loves me deeper than I thought possible. That His love sweeps into the most arid parts of my being. That His love is not frightened away by my ugliness. My secrets. That His love heals me . . . it dips into the inmost, and I am new. NEW. alleluia . . . That He didn't love me and leave me. He's here to stay, . . . to dance with me and speak into me to run, to run to the world with His light, to run into the hurting, to run into the dying, to run into Him, into Peace. To Run. To Live. To Die. Oh thank You isn't enough. It will never be. Ever. But for now, it is what I have to give. That and this makeshift life of mine. Oh how I hold back too often. I'm selfish, prideful, arrogant, ashamed. Never ever enough. But His love is . . . I'm learning, and I'm changing. Piece by piece. . .
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Monday, January 11, 2010
All That Dirt . . . More Thankfuls
Okay, so I absolutely think Church is genius. I'm so thankful God thought it up. However, I'm not a pure congratulant of the current day system nor would I attest to its perfection. I've seen several blots of impurity within my own church. The Fellow that preached this past Sunday said that a lot of the people he works with claim they don't go to church because it's full of hypocrites. (Fellow wanted to ask them how they knew that?? Smile). But as I was sitting in that wood pew, I found myself agreeing with him. Oh how often do we wear the facade of everything's-right-in-the-world or the what-do-you-mean-it-looks-like-we've-been-upset-lately? or the of-course-I've-got-it-all-together? Hypocrisy isn't just going to church and then stealing from your company the next day. Can't hypocrisy also be looking like you have it all together when you're following apart? Now, maybe I have it wrong, and if I do, I'd love to know . . . but somehow, these pieces aren't lining up. Y'all, church is a group of stained and broken people rescued by a prodigious grace from the Shepherd, the Lover of our souls. We're KIDS, y'all. Children of the King, and I'm so proud of that! But I'm also so grateful that we don't have to be perfect or completely fixed on this earth.
Well, that same Sunday even before the sermon during sharing time, another guy stood up and said something that spoke in a quantity of soul decibels . . . "We are all made from the same clay." How true!!! That's something I suppose I've know all along, but to put it into words was brilliant and hit home. That's so incredible, y'all! It means that we often all struggle with similar things, that we all have bad days sometimes, that sometimes we have trouble getting out of bed in the morning and facing another day, that sometimes we break our hearts and stub our toes on each other. It means we're all imperfect and in need of that measureless grace. It means we can all stand on level ground, right? And we can do life together, through the sticky and the smooth, the sun rays and the shadows. alleluia. So, today I'm thankful for many things, but here's a few . . .
361. That as Christians, we're just kids of God . . . God doesn't ask us to become perfect before we become His, but after we've been adopted, He works in us and molds us on that Potter's Wheel of His.
362. A note from Her . . . I tell you, sometimes it's the simple written words and the written Word that make the best Gifts. <3
363. Laughing with friend and thinking of weddings . . . someday, Jesus? Teach me to WAIT!!!
364. Birthday party for friend and that smile!
365. Hearing couple's story of their journey through a marriage . . . and that rocky spot and that pure redemption.
366. Hearing Her tell me she'll be praying for me and this whole college search. Sweet love.
367. Those sweet cinnamon twists from a dear girl . . . unexpected graces.
368. His kindness and friendliness . . . God will reward him.
369. That God is GOOD. As one of my teachers speculated, can you even IMAGINE what it would be like if God wasn't good? Not to be harsh, but life would be living hell without the goodness of God!
370. That snowman He drew for me and that bag of goodies . . . sweet little guy! Blessed my socks off!!! :)
371. Talking honestly with Her and feeling some walls crack.
372. New words
373. My healthy salad for lunch today . . . I tell you, people, it's the little things!! :)
374. Working in the student store today (and NOT doing the change . . . haha . . . there are reasons for that! grin)
375. Photos . . . memory savers. <3
Happy today!!! Live transparently, . . . after all, it's all the same dirt. ;)
Well, that same Sunday even before the sermon during sharing time, another guy stood up and said something that spoke in a quantity of soul decibels . . . "We are all made from the same clay." How true!!! That's something I suppose I've know all along, but to put it into words was brilliant and hit home. That's so incredible, y'all! It means that we often all struggle with similar things, that we all have bad days sometimes, that sometimes we have trouble getting out of bed in the morning and facing another day, that sometimes we break our hearts and stub our toes on each other. It means we're all imperfect and in need of that measureless grace. It means we can all stand on level ground, right? And we can do life together, through the sticky and the smooth, the sun rays and the shadows. alleluia. So, today I'm thankful for many things, but here's a few . . .
361. That as Christians, we're just kids of God . . . God doesn't ask us to become perfect before we become His, but after we've been adopted, He works in us and molds us on that Potter's Wheel of His.
362. A note from Her . . . I tell you, sometimes it's the simple written words and the written Word that make the best Gifts. <3
363. Laughing with friend and thinking of weddings . . . someday, Jesus? Teach me to WAIT!!!
364. Birthday party for friend and that smile!
365. Hearing couple's story of their journey through a marriage . . . and that rocky spot and that pure redemption.
366. Hearing Her tell me she'll be praying for me and this whole college search. Sweet love.
367. Those sweet cinnamon twists from a dear girl . . . unexpected graces.
368. His kindness and friendliness . . . God will reward him.
369. That God is GOOD. As one of my teachers speculated, can you even IMAGINE what it would be like if God wasn't good? Not to be harsh, but life would be living hell without the goodness of God!
370. That snowman He drew for me and that bag of goodies . . . sweet little guy! Blessed my socks off!!! :)
371. Talking honestly with Her and feeling some walls crack.
372. New words
373. My healthy salad for lunch today . . . I tell you, people, it's the little things!! :)
374. Working in the student store today (and NOT doing the change . . . haha . . . there are reasons for that! grin)
375. Photos . . . memory savers. <3
Happy today!!! Live transparently, . . . after all, it's all the same dirt. ;)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Prayer Time
Hey, y'all! So once upon a time, I came across a blogger named Kayla and her beautiful blog ADD TO THE BEAUTY, and I'm telling you, this woman is beautiful!!! She doesn't blog that often, but when she does, I love reading and following along on her journey.
Well, y'all, this girl needs our prayers, and as a fellow blogger and as I believe, sister in Jesus, I wanted to give her some room in this space of mine. Kayla's been blessed with a little baby growing inside her womb, but she's also been struggling with some bleeding and she has a hematoma that could be potentially very dangerous to that baby. Oh guys, from what I've seen, it's one of the worst things in the world to lose a child, even an unborned baby. Will you pray with me? Pray that if God wills, He would keep that little one safe and that He would really pour forth blessing on Kayla as she carries this child as well as her husband Micaiah. Thank you!!!
Well, y'all, this girl needs our prayers, and as a fellow blogger and as I believe, sister in Jesus, I wanted to give her some room in this space of mine. Kayla's been blessed with a little baby growing inside her womb, but she's also been struggling with some bleeding and she has a hematoma that could be potentially very dangerous to that baby. Oh guys, from what I've seen, it's one of the worst things in the world to lose a child, even an unborned baby. Will you pray with me? Pray that if God wills, He would keep that little one safe and that He would really pour forth blessing on Kayla as she carries this child as well as her husband Micaiah. Thank you!!!
Monday, January 4, 2010
Thank You!
Time is ticking. Spanish 3 and many more classes start up again today so I'll just write a few of my gratefuls. :) Today's not going to be easy. Back to the grind. I'm trying to keep my head up though. It's God's day, right? :)
351. Watching "Flywheel" with family
352. Visit from Friend . . . that she'd take that time to see me. <3
353. Youth group's all nighter . . . hanging out with friends
354. Playing hide-and-go-seek in the dark in my church . . . I know that building much more than I did last week! :)
355. Hearing "Your Hands" by JJ Heller on the radio . . . right now.
356. Hearing the end of "Forgiven" by Sanctus Real on the radio when I woke up this morning. <3
357. Putting together a puzzle with Her
358. His German accent
359. That little girl smile and her calling me "Mary"
360. A New Year . . . a new beginning.
351. Watching "Flywheel" with family
352. Visit from Friend . . . that she'd take that time to see me. <3
353. Youth group's all nighter . . . hanging out with friends
354. Playing hide-and-go-seek in the dark in my church . . . I know that building much more than I did last week! :)
355. Hearing "Your Hands" by JJ Heller on the radio . . . right now.
356. Hearing the end of "Forgiven" by Sanctus Real on the radio when I woke up this morning. <3
357. Putting together a puzzle with Her
358. His German accent
359. That little girl smile and her calling me "Mary"
360. A New Year . . . a new beginning.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
A New Focus for a New Year
Wednesday night and Thursday morning I took some time to leaf through the pages of my 2009 prayer journals, trying to take a quick ride through the year, to recapture some of the moments I might have forgotten. As I looked back, I realized that 2009 was a tough year. There were so many moments of feeling like such a failure, feeling so guilty, like I wasn't enough. There were so many times where God felt distant, and I didn't know what to do about it except hate the feeling of numb pain [and yes, that exists . . . smile]. Disconnected was the word of the day several days. I didn't know what I was doing wrong. Or IF I was doing something wrong. Anyway, I came to a point (well, maybe it wasn't a point or a destination but a new road) where I realized that it wasn't so much about the doing. It's not completely about the "God, what did I do now?," but more about the startling realization that just simply Danae is
F-O-R-G-I-V-E-N!!!!!
Do you know what that MEANS???? That means that I'm FREE!!! That means that guilt doesn't have to tie me down or paint my life in misery!!!! That means that the Maker of the Heavens can talk to me now. He can hold me close and hear my heart, (and I can hear HIS if I chose to listen). He can WALK with me now. Like, do you get what this even means????? Oh my word, it makes me excited just thinking about it! Now, I know what you're thinking [maybe]. You're thinking, "Well, duh! Didn't she know about this forgiveness before?" Well, yeah! and no. I knew about forgiveness, but my focus had been so much on the doing Christianity than the being a Christian, and don't get me wrong sir or misses . . . I'm not for trashing the doing like Christ. Faith without works is dead after all. But I'm also in for the just simply LIVING, for the just simply BEING.
One of the light bulb, oh-my-word-this-is-so-cool moments came while I was in the car, and this song came on the radio. Now, y'all, go listen to it. NOW. I mean seriously. RIGHT NOW!!! [If you've already heard it, well, click the replay button. It's good!]
Did you hear it yet??? :) Well, as of January 2nd, this is my new theme song for 2010. :) My two themes of this year are:
"Livin' Forgiven" and thinking that way too
and
Letting my life be an act of Worship for Jesus. Living purposefully to attain that cause.
Well, I'm going to make it my goal [call it a new years resolution if you so desire] to blog on my 2010 theme at the beginning of every month, an idea I've borrowed from other amazing bloggers. [You might need to remind me about it. smile]. But for now, I bid thee good day. Have a lovely night and a happy new year!
PS What's the theme of your year?
F-O-R-G-I-V-E-N!!!!!
Do you know what that MEANS???? That means that I'm FREE!!! That means that guilt doesn't have to tie me down or paint my life in misery!!!! That means that the Maker of the Heavens can talk to me now. He can hold me close and hear my heart, (and I can hear HIS if I chose to listen). He can WALK with me now. Like, do you get what this even means????? Oh my word, it makes me excited just thinking about it! Now, I know what you're thinking [maybe]. You're thinking, "Well, duh! Didn't she know about this forgiveness before?" Well, yeah! and no. I knew about forgiveness, but my focus had been so much on the doing Christianity than the being a Christian, and don't get me wrong sir or misses . . . I'm not for trashing the doing like Christ. Faith without works is dead after all. But I'm also in for the just simply LIVING, for the just simply BEING.
One of the light bulb, oh-my-word-this-is-so-cool moments came while I was in the car, and this song came on the radio. Now, y'all, go listen to it. NOW. I mean seriously. RIGHT NOW!!! [If you've already heard it, well, click the replay button. It's good!]
Did you hear it yet??? :) Well, as of January 2nd, this is my new theme song for 2010. :) My two themes of this year are:
"Livin' Forgiven" and thinking that way too
and
Letting my life be an act of Worship for Jesus. Living purposefully to attain that cause.
Well, I'm going to make it my goal [call it a new years resolution if you so desire] to blog on my 2010 theme at the beginning of every month, an idea I've borrowed from other amazing bloggers. [You might need to remind me about it. smile]. But for now, I bid thee good day. Have a lovely night and a happy new year!
PS What's the theme of your year?
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