Sunday, June 23, 2013

Help Me: Part 1

I must have tripped into a battle ground unsuspecting.
All I know is the child's play of toy soldiers, but this?
This is war.
And I'm not ready.

The arrows fly . . . whizzing a foot away from my ear drums,
Making them rattle, making my heart beat.
Faster. Faster. Faster.

And the whiz of the arrows makes words and sentences.

Another one flies by,
And as it cuts through wind, it cuts out words, speaking:

danae, danae, you're not a warrior.
you're a coward, a reject.
your life doesn't look like theirs.
it's a shards pile of rebellious brokenness.
who do you think you are?
you don't even know what it's like to follow Jesus.
you've forgotten Him, remember?
you're not even worth wounding in this battle.
black sheep.
you'll never find a home.
you definitely don't belong here.
you'll fail and disappoint everyone.
just get out of the way.
your life's a joke.
forget it.
oh, i see.
now you're playing victim.
stoop that low, huh?
it's all your fault anyways, remember?

another arrow, another arrow, another arrow.

closer. nearer. contiguous.



To be continued.


bitnee said...

Blessed be the Lord, my rock,
who trains my hands for war,
and my fingers for battle;
2 he is my steadfast love and my fortress,
my stronghold and my deliverer,
my shield and he in whom I take refuge,
who subdues peoples[a] under me.

Psalm 144:1-2

I love you!!

Anonymous said...

This is extremely concerning. Danae, those are deep deep lies from the pit and they can overtake you if you aren't careful and they can cause serious problems. Run to the Lord and hold on tight! Keep seeking Him even if you don't get the results or feelings you think you should be getting. Time.

danae said...

Bethany, THANK YOU. Needed those verses. Praise God that HE equips us.

And to you, my anonymous warrior, thank you so much for caring. Thank you for your words, for reminding me to run back. He has been re-centering me. I was really facing those lies after our church's Bible school ended. So hard. Trying to let Jesus come in and fill me with Truth. He will win, is winning. Love to you, whoever you are.