Day 10: Burning Brilliance
Half-way through the torrent. Much behind, so much up ahead.
It's sweet mid-semester break.
How do I live life to the hilt but yet live with the realization that I am not able to do all?
How do I live the paradox of dreaming big dreams but realizing I am incapable of doing anything big in my strength?
Do I burn out brilliant? Giving all at once, a vibrant burst of star streaming across sky? It sure seems like if I'm living for the Kingdom of God, I should be giving ALL for it. I should be expending every possible piece of energy to bring His kingdom here.
But then, what about days like today? When I'm tired? Is there a rhythm to this life, or do I give all some days and label the days in between "recovery"?
Day 11: Being Still Always
I deeply admire William Wilberforce, very eager to read more about him. He worked so hard to accomplish his goals, Kingdom goals. He is quoted as saying, "So enormous, so dreadful, so irremediable did the [Slave] Trade's wickedness appear that my own mind was completely made up for abolition. Let the consequences be what they would, I from this time determined that I would never rest until I had effects its abolition."
Can anyone fault him for swearing not to rest? Or is rest not that simple?
I come to this place wondering what it means that rest may be a multi-faceted mountain.
There is physical rest, spiritual rest, emotional rest, mental rest.
Are pieces of these rests meant to be prioritized over others during certain stages of our lives?
Resting our spirits seems to be priority always. Isn't resting rooted in trust? And isn't trust the very privilege and the non-negotiable requirement of the children of God?
Isn't rest, a stillness, that which goes along with knowing that He is God? The Be Still and Know?
While there seems to be very real times when my physical fervor must be expended beyond comfort, isn't it true that regardless, my spirit must always fight for rest in Jesus? Am I maintaining a relationship with Him that leads me to resting in Him, in wholeheartedly trusting Him?